Day 3 of the Pleasure countdown; desires
I've always been passionate about empowering women to take control of their own pleasure, healing, and self-care. But lately, I've been feeling burnt out and disconnected from my own sexual energy.
That's why I've decided to embark on a 6-week jade egg training journey. Guided by the captivating and calming Manjit, I aim to reconnect with my inner self and deepen my practice. This blog will document my highs, lows, and everything in between.
Wednesday 23rd August 2023
Day 3 of the Countdown to Pleasure: Unveiling your desires
Welcome to Day 3 of our 5-Day Pleasure Countdown leading up to our transformative 6-week Jade Egg Journey. After yesterday's enlightening session on "Clearings," today we're diving into the world of "Desires."
What Are Desires?
Desires are the deep-seated wants and needs that drive us. They can range from the profound to the playful, from the sexual to the silly. Owning what you want and honoring your desires can bring fulfillment, alignment, and clarity into your life.
The Desire Checklist
What Do You Really Want?: This is the core question that helps you dig deep into your soul's yearnings.
Goals: These are the tangible milestones you aim to achieve.
Deep Desires: These are the emotional and spiritual wants that give your life meaning.
Silly and superficial Desires: These are the light-hearted wants that bring joy and laughter into your life.
Sexual Desires: These are the intimate wants that connect you to your sensual self.
my desires journal
What Do I Really Want?:
The Question of egg Freezing The idea of having a child is like a puzzle I can't quite solve. Is it the fear of not finding the right partner that's holding me back, or is it the uncertainty of how a child would fit into my already complex life? It's like standing at a crossroads, and each path leads to a different version of me. I need to dig deeper into this, perhaps even consult with friends who've been in similar situations, to truly understand what I want.
Lifting the Weight: Sometimes, I just wish I could snap my fingers and make all the stress and responsibilities vanish. It's as if I'm carrying a backpack filled with rocks, each rock representing a worry or a task. How liberating it would be to just drop that weight and feel light again! I need to explore ways to make this metaphorical backpack lighter—be it through meditation, delegating tasks, or simply learning to let go.
What are my Goals:
The instant I thought about goals, my mind went to other people. It's both a blessing and a curse to be so externally focused. While it's great to be empathetic, I need to remember that self-care isn't selfish.
My second thought was about my business, which is my brainchild and a significant part of my identity. But am I letting it define me too much? I need to strike a balance between being a business owner and just being me.
What are my Deep Desires?
I yearn for that fire-entwined romance, the kind where just a look can speak volumes. I want to find that person who feels like home, where our souls recognize each other. It's not just about romance; it's about a deep, emotional connection that transcends words.
What are my silly and superficial Desires?
Laughter Therapy: I've been so engrossed in work that I've forgotten the simple joy of being silly and laughing until my stomach hurts.
I've met someone who brings that laughter back into my life, but he comes with baggage. It's a bittersweet realization that he's not the one, but the laughter he's brought into my life is a gift.
Dream Home: I fantasize about a modern, airy house overlooking a private beach. Imagine waking up to the sound of waves and not having to share that serenity with anyone else!
A Friend for Alfie: My dog Alfie is my world, and I want to give him a playmate. I can almost see his wagging tail and the joyful leaps he'd make with a new friend around.
What are my sexual Desires ?
More Than Just Physical: While I do have a friends-with-benefits situation, it lacks the emotional depth and connection that make intimacy truly fulfilling. I want more; I want the build-up, the tension, the complete experience.
Tantric Exploration: I'm intrigued by the idea of tantric sex. I want to delve into breathwork and unlock levels of pleasure I've never experienced before. It's not just about the act; it's about connecting with myself and my partner on a spiritual level.
So there it is, my heart spilled out on these digital pages. It's a mix of deep questions, playful wishes, and earnest yearnings. But putting them down like this makes them feel more real, more attainable. Here's to making these desires a reality! 🌟
The Physical and Emotional Baseline
Period: Day 3 of my period, that magical time when the hormonal rollercoaster finally levels out. It's like emerging from a fog and suddenly seeing the world in vibrant color again. And let's be honest, there's a certain kinkiness in the air. Maybe it's the alignment of the stars or perhaps it's the deep dive into my desires, but I'm feeling more in tune with my sensual self. It's as if my body is saying, "Hey, we're back to feeling good; let's celebrate!"
Masturbation: It's been a few days since I've had some quality alone time, if you know what I mean. 😉 But tonight feels like the perfect occasion to reconnect with myself on a physical level.
Last Jade Practice: Over a month ago, before this new chapter beckoned.
An Invitation to Join Me
This is my first time documenting such an intimate journey, and I'll strive to be as open and honest as possible. If you have questions or thoughts, please share them. Let's empower each other to find our authentic selves and reclaim our well-being.
MY 6 WEEK JACDE EGG JOURNEY ~ JOURNALS
- Friday 18th August 2023 ~ One Week before the training begins
- Monday 21st August 2023 ~ Day 1 The Pleasure Countdown; Celebrations
- Tuesday 22nd August 2023 ~ Day 2 The Pleasure Countdown; Clearing
- Thursday 24th August 2023 ~ Day 4 The pleasure countdown; Honeypot meditation
- Friday 25th August 2023 ~ Day 5 of the the pleasure countdown: A letter to my yoni
- Friday 25th August 2023 ~ Welcome Ceremony